Weaklings or Humans Only?

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In general, I like myself. I mean, I do have some things I want to change, but I try to ignore all these and accept me as much as I can.

There are times however, when I know, that if I could just get rid of some annoying sides of me, I would be happier. Really! I'm not talking about 'being a good person for the sake of humanity'. Just for me. So that simple things would stop bothering me.

I will mention one. I have ambitions. Sometimes I think too many. And I wanna be special to people. That is not funny people! I really mean it. I've to have it all! All the attention! And so, when I see someone that feels like a 'threat', I dislike him/her.

Sometimes, I just do that. I dislike people for no apparent reason. Usually there is one of course. But it's something soooo trivial, so 'not huge', that is embarassing to admit. At times like these, I say to myself, that maybe, maybe if I could just get rid of all these stupid feelings and this pettiness, I would be happier! So much happier!

Am I a weakling? Or just human? I wanna ask a few people around me: "do you dislike people who just feel threatening? Do you want reassurance each and every time?". But I guess, even if I asked you, you wouldn't admit that you can think and act like that.

I admit it! I can be selfish, I can be stupid, I can get jealous, I want you to notice only me, I want you to show me that I am special with every little thing you do. I am not a weakling. I'm only human. What about you?